We cycle, we pivot, like turns in the creaking staircase
while you parry my questions, acting as if they were whiny old pensioners.
We thread rhetoric through care-ridden halls, circle without limit, reduce ourselves to pouts and shadows.
We no longer share tempered talk
such as why the retaining wall installed a few years ago will no longer suffice.
It could appear futile to re-evaluate the move to this long-dreamt outcropping of a district
with gabled roofs and gravel drives, but lacking a café or convenience store.
Perhaps Mona could have reacted with some composure
toward our planning the reunion when her partner might have been in Rwanda.
And if Samik had not wanted to bother with our cello, perhaps it would
Third conditionals have worn out my hospitality.
have profited us not to be bothered with him.
I used to watch your tired muscles on the treadmill.
I harbored the words behind the silences I was hearing on the phone.
You claim indulgences in the salon.
Press on me no more ambiguities before the mantel in the evenings, please
and no more wiles shielded by entitlements.
The way to imperatives has become impossible.
So gracious was everyone at the last funeral
we would all have almost been smothered.
We snag our conversations on the past perfect continuous.
I’m forced to trade my complaints for excuses in a
All this time I had been taking our
cast-off understandings out for burial.
Now the mobs are rousting in the streets, dear.
So whence henceforth
All year our actions will have been marred by preplanned irregularities
and all the adverbs I saved up
to ennoble our expressions
have lost their potency.
This poem was published in Issue 3 of Too Well Away Literary Journal.
June 24, 2020